2011

Before 2011 ended I lost the love of my life. The hardest part of losing him is that I know that there will come a time that I will need to let him go. Not only of the person but of the feelings, of the memories (good and bad) and finally let go of what we had.

We started as any couple would. We fought, we laughed, we cried, we loved. But amidst everything, I felt, actually WE both felt that something was always missing. Something was not right. And we were so afraid of losing the love, that we have forgotten to fill in the gap of what was always missing. Yes, it was forgotten but it never went away. Until the day came that the feeling that we have fought so much to forget, grew into a monster who would eventually destroy us.

So the day came when I lost a part of my heart that I know I'll never get back and I know that would be day that will forever change my life.

I loved and lost the person who would forever change my life. I know that it would take time before this pain will disappear however from this point on I will do my best to focus on the people I love and who actually loves me no matter how crazy I become, focus on my career wherever it may take me and lastly focus on myself, the lone person I forgot and neglected for the past 6 years and 7 months.

And of course, go back to a love of sharing my stories to anyone who would like to know it.

Have you ever lost the love you love the most?